Mumbling Production Part 1

17 Mei 2013.. 1.38 a.m.
Aku stay up.. And I did it on purpose . Why ? Sebab aku x mahu awal bangun besok . Since besok , 12 p.m , keputusan UPU keluar . And this time I didn't put too much hope on it . Sebab aku x mahu rasa sakit macam masa aku gagal dapat matriks hari tu.

Tadi Aien.D Meow post video di MP . Dia tujukan video tu untuk budak2 MP yang nda lama lagi mendaftar di matriks.. 19hb for KML if I not mistaken .. I watched that video for 3 times . Hahaha.. Lucu k . SANGAT !

Video tu pasal mumblers2 lawan2 yell.. I wish I were there .. Spending more time with them ..
Miss them so so so much !~

Kali ni aku nda akan ceritakan tentang dorang secara spesifik . Tapi aku mahu ceritakan macam mana kehadiran dorang membawa makna dalam hidup ku . *  mengelikan dalam bm tapi sweet dalam bi . hahaha.. dan ak xda mood mahu b'bi malam ni *

A big apology from my little heart

Hai guys ..
How are you ?
Wow .. Time flies .. It's 19th of March .. two days before the SPM result will be announced ..
Keep calm and pray for us okay?

I write this entry for someone . I've wrote about her before ~
In this entry . 

I still love you

Last night , after hanging out with Monex, Bambet and Ana , Monex's parents sent me home . Then , I login my FB acc . I opened the message . I was shocked .

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Heather John Nicholas :

hai. 
first of all, i am very thankful for i am gifted with such wonderful friends. But I failed to fulfill my responsibilities as a friend. I failed to take a very good care of the ones i love. I am VERY SORRY 
All this time, I didn't even realize that I am actually hurting someone i care about. And that someone had done so many good things just for me. Please don't say that you miss the OLD me. I am still me  I am not gonna say that I am too happy to even say HI to you. And I am also not gonna say that I am too busy to even think about you. You may not believe this, but i do think about you everyday. I still remember all the silly little things that we did together. I still remember how we used to get laughed at when we were riding your 4 wheeled motorbike all around Pamol by all the JAKUN people. I still remember how we used to always get scolded in our class. I still remember how we used to have our ups and downs together, shared our jokes and tears together, and having heart-to-heart conversations. I still remember every single one of it. I am sorry that I ignored you. I admit that I was and still am very stupid for doing that horrid thing to you and to all of our friends. I don't know how I can make this up to you. All I can say is I am very sorry for not being a good friend  I wish you can accept my apology.  I wrote this sincerely from my heart. I am very sorry  please forgive me ?  i love you. I am not good at saying sorry. And I am very ashamed that I have hurt you. I don't want to lose you:(

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I was speechless okay . I felt like I am so mean for saying her like that .  

I took hours to reply her . Also asking for my friend's opinion . It's not like I'm making this thing become a huge problem . I feel so guilty to her . :(

Then I replied her message ..

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Qiara Ophelia Lim :

hai also . Wow . Your apology touched me so much . I'm so sorry too . You see . I have no intention to humiliate you or what . It just an entry that expressed what i feel about . And i never thought that you also think about me;us . You're always in our mind,you know . We talked about you and maybe we will talk about you when we meet together this friday - for taking the spm result . Oh,ya . A big wish for you . Gud luck dear . I hope we will get a flying colour result so that we will meet in matrics or asasi later. Promise me,that you will never feel ashame to send a text to us? Don't say that you are not a good friend . Yes you are . Maybe distance and time have changed a little bit of 'us'. I love you too . Miss you so much .hope to see you soon. o,ya ther . Things doesn't seem right as before ther . Fight and misunderstood have going wild recently among us .

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Right now, I'm just waiting for her to reply it . I hope that everything will be fine after this . 

I love you , Heather .

Pesanan untuk Si Teman

WEAKNESS ~ Please ignore that error .

Aku cuma orang yang biasa . Tidak sempurna . Banyak silap dan salah . Aku tahu dan mengaku .
Dan aku juga setuju dengan apa yang kau cakap .
" MENILAI ORANG LAIN LEBIH SENANG DARIPADA MENILAI DIRI SENDIRI ".
Tapi apa yang aku kecewa sebab kamu sudah dikaburi dengan cinta sampai kamu tidak kenal sudah kawan kamu sendiri . Yang sudah jadi kawan kamu selama beberapa tahun . SEDIH , KECEWA, TERKILAN dan sedikit MARAH.

Teman , aku tahu kau terasa kalau kalau kau baca post ini . Aku mahu bagi tahu kamu kebenarannya . AKU, NANON & HANY tidak pernah cemburu dengan kamu berdua . TAPI kami MALU sebab perbuatan kamu ni terlalu ikut LUST . Tahu apa 2? Cek la n kamu akan tahu apa yang aku maksudkan .

Untuk boy tu :
Kau serbu aku di wall FB , kau sindir aku di status , Tapi kau tidak tahu yang GF kau sudah diumpat2 oleh 1 bilik guru di sekolah kita . Sampai guru2 SK pun tahu . Mak cik GF kau tu sikit mahu bagi tahu parents GF kau tu . Tapi dia sendiri x sampai hati tengok GF kau terima padahnya . Perkara ni sudah lama berlalu . Sebelum kita SPM lagi tapi kenapa ungkit sekarang ? Kami tidak suka juga jadi penyibuk . Kami lebih suka join dengan ahli2 kelas 5A yang lain mengumpat pasal kamu . * terus terang * tapi kami tidak sanggup sudah . Lagipun cikgu2 suruh kami advice GF kau tu . Kau tahukan perempuan yang akan dipandang rendah dalam situasi kamu ni . Bukan KAU . Tiada yang DENGKI dengan kamu . Bagus lagi aku jaga hubungan aku sendiri . ~



Untuk girl tu :
Kita masih kawan . Tapi kami rasa mungkin itu perkara last yang kami ambil berat tentang kau sebab kami tidak mahu kami kena di belakang hari sudah . Nikmatilah percintaan kamu tu . Kami doakan kamu bahagia . Kami tetap kami . Kita berempat tahu siapa di antara kita yang berubah . Kan girls ? As a girl, we should take care of our pride . :)
Janganlah pasal kami bertiga, kamu bergaduh . Kami tetap stay together juga ni . Nothing change ; I guess so .


Untuk Nanon & Hany :
I love you guys . Thanks atas usaha kita yang walaupun tidak menjadi tapi at least kita cuba kan ? Ingat janji2 kita . Jangan lupa jemputan masa kahwin !!! :P
Ingat selalu kenangan kita sama2 ya ..

Muka Form 3 !

I still love you

HAI ~

Today I will tell a story about my best friend . Is she ? Or WAS ?
Her name is Heather John Nicholas .

Qiara and Heather

Okay . It's all began when I was in Form 2 Ikram . There was a new student who entered our class . She was approached by the " Skema Geng " . So, me who was in the " Naughty Gang " didn't care too much about her . I thought she was just an ordinary girl . I mean in academic .
So, I'm still the smartest student in that class la.. *in my dream* :P

One day , my other friends asked her , " Heather, how much you got in your UPSR result ?" She answered , " 5A's " . " What ?! OMG~ I'm going to down this time !" I whispered in my heart .

After that , I began to become friend with her . Not because I was afraid of losing with her in the examination . It just so suddenly . I even don't remember how we became friends and then best friends . Before, I thought she was a skema girl okay ; I was wrong . She doesn't . She also like us . Who enjoys stupid jokes very much .

For me , * I don't know if she also feel that way *, we were so closed . I always spend the night in her home and vice versa . Doing stupid things together , surfing the internet and searching for stupids info , eat a lots * I was the chef * hahaha .. studying together for the PMR examination.

listening to our problems and many more . The sweetest thing ; riding the 4 tyres motorbike together . Get laughing by "JAKUN" people in Pamol .. It was embarrassing but quite fun .

PMR was over and we both got 7 A's in our result . As we have promised before,we apply the SBP * SMSLD* . We both got the opportunity to go there but unfortunately she refused to go there . I went there alone . Come back to SMK Pamol alone . Alone without you my best friend . I guess you have forgot the promises we have made together back then ; to achieve the success together and go to SBP together . She went to SMK Beluran Bestari ; where she have her best friends and boyfriend there . It's okay . It's fine if you have forgotten the promises but why you did you forgot our FRIENDSHIP ?

You did not text us . US . Not only ME . When I asked you, you said that you are shame with us . Come on Yoe *her cute name* , we are still we . We don't change - we think you did . We always remembered you . Always . Huhhh.. Never mind Heather .. Guess you are too happy there .. Who are we to you right ?
Pamolisian who always irritate you .. At least just one text . Pretending to ask about our healthiness or anything else . Or just remember my parents who have treated you as their own daughter . I wasn't jealous , envy even not asking for your payment . NO . I just want everything to be fine just like before . I MISS THE OLD YOU , HEATHER.  :')

See ? They really have a sweet moments together .. :D

She and her boyfriend . They're really sweet .. :)

Our ex-gang in the canteen

I miss you guys .. :')

Remember those Secondhand Serenade's songs that you have gave to me ? How lovely songs are they .
I wrote this entry while hearing to that songs .. :')
Seriously , you are always in my minds . There are so many memories that we have shared together . You taught me a lot of things . Thanks .
I love you , Heather . I hope you will read this . My sincere entry just for you .


Stranger : Secondhand Serenade

You call me a stranger
You say I'm a danger
But all these thoughts are leaving you tonight
I'm broke and abandoned
You are an angel
Making all my dreams come true tonight

5 Sains SMK Pamol 2012

5 Sains SMK Pamol 2012 ..
Aku rindu sangat dengan anggota2nya ..
Aku rindu suasana kelas kami .. Yang nda pernah diam terutama sekali dengan suara ku ..
Aku rindu semangat 'baking-membaking' kami .. Semangat maw menang law join apa saja pertandingan di sekolah .. Semangat kerjasama kami ..
Aku cakap bukan setakat omong kosong .. Buktinya apa?
Kami dapat kelas terbaik menengah atas 2012 .. Masa menengah rendah pun kami dapat anugerah tu ..

Walaupun setakat hamper, tapi besar maknanya buat kami..

Hari ni aku mahu perkenalkan anggota2 kelas kami .. *ceh* :P
Kami ni semua ada pasangan .. Kenapa? Sebab kami ada 16 orang dlm kelas ... 8 lelaki & 8 perempuan ..

Ok ~ Jom kenal dengan CEWEK2 dulu ~ *sebab gmbr single drg ada dgn aku* haha..

Pen. Ketua Kelas ~> Qiara Ophelia Lim *ceh*

Aku special sikit ~ nda pakai bju skul n promote Dutch Lady lg ~

Sharon Shannon Kinti ~>

Nur Afini Ismail ~>

  

Azilah Arbain~>

Elizebeth Edward~>

Sukgrace Sukut~>

Jivenna Jikol~>

Nur Fatihah Luding~>

 OK~ BOYS ~ aku ndada la gambar2 single durang ~ :(

Ok ~ Dari kanan ; Mickswarld Jaimin,Monex Miming, Stephen Steve Linsua. Yang boy pakai baju biru, Machyudin Jakaria.

Dari kiri; Villyrius Petrus dan Mohd. Hanafis Patang

Sorry for the blur image . Yang peace2 tu, Mohd. Khairul Anuar Mahmud.

Dari kanan; Jester Fidly Jalamit.

So, complete sudah nama2 16 orang ni . Kalau nda percaya, kira la satu2 ~ ahaha ~ :P
 Sekarang ni,intro saja dulu ~ Will be continued in Part II..