It's been a while ...

Hai fellas..
How are you?
First of all.. i want to apologize if there is any typo here ..
I still don't get along with this phone .
Haha..

Mine is the dark blue one. .lol

My mumy gave it to me as my spm present.
And i'm so happy for having this phone. . I've been dreaming and dying to have a smart phone in my life.
 And finally, i can have this samsung galaxy grand..



And it's been a while since i'm updating my entry in my online diary . It just i'm taking a time to recover from my despair . Although i'm still feeling sad for my spm result, but i must face the reality ..



I do feel thankful for this unexpected result especially for my add maths grade . But one thing that always spinning around my head is " sedangkan aku main2 belajar pun aku dapat result begini apa lagi kalau aku study betul2.."

i've disappointed my parents ..
I cried. Not because i'm only getting 2A+,3A and 4B+ in my spm result . It's because i have letting down my parents..


I admitted it .. i was my fault ..
Too much enjoying.. too much spending time on bad things.. too.much sleeping.. studying only on the night before the examinations.. also the spm .. lack of awareness .. that's me as a 2012 spm candidate..

THERE IS NO USE TO CRY OVER A SPLIT MILK !!


One night, i was facebooking .. i joined this group called " Halatuju selepas spm "..
Then i read one of the senpai's post .

" saya dapat 4a sj dalam spm dan kwan baik sy dpt straight ... kami sama2 msuk matriks.. dsebabkan dy rsa slsa dgn result spm dy, dy jrg stdy .. at last, sy dpt 4 flat dan dy tpksa msuk prog 2 thun..result spm bkan penentu sglanya.."



Then i realized ... that's me.. too comfortable with my past result ..
Then i concluded that this is my destiny ..
For God knows what is the best for me..
So.. from now on.. i will struggling to get a place in matrics or in asasi..
Then, i will certainly do my best for it..
No more tears ..
Only joy..
That's my promise ..
It's pay back time..
Can't wait for it!!
HWAITING!!!

Pity you , old man .

Hai guys ~ How are you ??

Kelmarin jalan2 jumpa orang tua baring2 di jalan .. IDK if dia siuman atau tidak ..
Tapi tiadakah tempat yang lebih sesuai untuk dia tu ?
Seriously, aku sensitive tengok orang2 begini.
Ntah kenapa . Memang dari dulu lagi .
Tapi yang lagi bikin panas , ada pihak yang gunakan dorang ni untuk minta sedekah . Memang ada . Orang yang tidak bertanggungjawab suruh orang tua ni minta sedekah di tepi jalan then duit tu dorang bagi2 lah .
Cruel !~ Dan juga satu penipuan yang sangat tidak berperikemanusiaan .

Tak patut,tak patut~

Okay . Ini memang satu penipuan . Tapi macam mana pula dengan orang tua yang teraniaya ? Oleh anak dan keluarga sendiri ??


Bayangkan dulu, dorang susah2 kerja untuk cari duit . Duit tu pula bukan untuk dorang . Tapi untuk kita, anak2 dorang ..
Sedangkan aku yang baru part time kerja ni pun rasa penat, apa lagi parents2 yang kerja di ladang2 kelapa sawit (menumbak,loading and etc), menoreh getah , ada juga yang pungut2 tin dan besi2 saja  . Kerja2 tu sangat memenatkan . Tapi dorang tidak pernah merungut . Kenapa ? Sebab dorang sayng kita, ingat tanggungjawab dorang sebagai ibu bapa yang harus bagi kita keperluan asas yang secukupnya .

Kamu nda kasihan tengok gambar2 ni??

Hah . Tahu pun kasihan . Tapi kenapa ?? Kenapa abaikan dorang ?

Dan paling teruk, hantar dorang pergi sini :

Inilah balasannya ?

Dorang nda minta banyak . Cuma kasih sayang dan perhatian saja .

Fikir2kanlah ~